Actually, I'm still trying to finish the test crochet I showed progress on last week, but as I'm nearing the end of that, I'm sort of burning out. As the pattern has emerged I'm realizing I'm not thrilled with the color sequence I decided to work this scarf in, but I'm committed to finishing it as is.
And I so want to be done with it. I wanted to be done yesterday, but it was our wedding anniversary (35th to be exact) and well...except for a few rows I just wasn't in the mood to crochet a scarf I'm sort of feeling burned out on.
Please nobody tell on me (not that I expect that to be much of a temptation to anyone), but I actually spent my weekend mostly playing hooky from crocheting by cleaning. It wasn't my intention. It's just that feeling a little less than enthusiastic about the crocheting, house cleaning (specifically window cleaning) sounded like more fun... Well, that, and it was our anniversary weekend. So other than cleaning, we had church on Sunday morning and then a very nice anniversary dinner out. And then we vegged. It was a great weekend!
And now, here it is - Monday. And it feels like it's a paid (though not-paid) work day, I feel like I need to get back to this scarf. I started out loving test crocheting this scarf. Really, I was excited once it got going. And I still think it's a pretty scarf. And I'm not exactly not loving test crocheting it, but I have discovered yet again that once I've committed myself to something I inevitably lose some interest in it. What's up with this? Is it a character flaw? Or is this a normal thing for most people? Those are rhetorical questions and only those who know exactly what I'm talking about are given permission to answer. IOW, I don't want to hear from those who never have a problem keeping their enthusiasm over a commitment. Your perky pleasure at barreling through a project will be wasted on me in this frame of mind.
This "character flaw" is one of the reasons I don't join things like book clubs. Or reading challenges. It's why I'm cautious about joining a CAL, and why I'm extremely reluctant to crochet on commission. I'll be all excited about doing the thing, but at some point I'll see the other pretty things I want to make, or another book I want to read, and suddenly I'm less than emotivated to finish the thing I HAVE to do.
Ugh.
So that's where I'm at. I'm finally giving up on the idea of posting a "see how productive I've been" sort of post for this week's YOP. And I'm just laying myself out there. This is part of the process, afterall, right? Coming to grips with the highs and lows of making wonderful things.
And you know... Actually, getting this out will probably be just the thing I need to get my test crochet mojo back. I'll probably knock that thing out later today and get it blocked tomorrow. Then again, now that I've written that, I've possibly jinxed myself. But saying I've jinxed myself might help me to feel like I can sneak and finishing this thing - like on the sly 'cause no one will actually expect me to finish it quickly now. But now that I've admitted that... Oh good grief.
What's wrong with me?!?
Don't answer that. If you followed my train of thought above, I love you! You get me! You know there's nothing (deeply) wrong with me. I'm just owning it. And if you're completely honest, you probably feel a little relieved that I'm admitting it.
If you don't follow my train of thought or understand my plight, well...I love you anyway. For sticking with me all the way to here. You're a good Joe (or Josephine, as the shoe more likely fits).
While I trust you to keep my secret, I do know I've likely doomed my chances at any of you reading this ever taking me up on testing your upcoming designs. It's okay, really. If you find me asking on Ravelry or elsewhere to test your design feel free to remind me of this post. I may beg and cry and plead, but I will totally understand if you take a pass on me.
In the meantime...it's back to my test crocheting. Actually, no. No. That's not right. I'm going to continue playing hooky (said she as she sneakily picked up her crochet hook). Grrr....Now that they're on to me I might as well as go read a book!
Doo dee doo dee doo... Now where did I put that test crochet project?
